The journey back home!

People, just people; everywhere. Am i just a face in the crowd?. i asked myself. On a cold winter morning, all i heard was the voice within. A voice; no, voices! A desperate cry for help; the need for salvation. Isn't it  too easy and simple? How can one just forgive and forget?. Matters of the heart, not  a thing of simplicity. A flight, a plane. Is one descending or ascending? How does one really know?...Do we really understand?... How does one forgive? how does one forget?.. where should one draw the line? Questions! Questions! Questions!  Who must win and what exactly is winning? Hate!..what is hate? Why must one hate? A handsome face, no faces; handsome faces...they looked a bit too young to understand the forces, the collisions, the boom. They shall not remain ignorant. Time will teach them. A preparation that will never suffice; with struggles never ending. Then i shall say to them "welcome" . The men, yes , the men on the stage. A pair of eyes and a little much more, headlights i supposed. I hope its enough. But no, it will never be enough. And the women, the women behind the curtains. Why must you hide?. Were you never told of the limitations of a set of headlights?.. The shell must be broken. There is not much time.
      I saw them sad. I felt them weak. I heard their whispers. I listened to their laughter. I mocked their tears. I painted them grey. They walked past me, i did not care.  I looked at myself. I saw a person bleeding.  A person that bleeds every now and then. The irony. A Sad Sad life. Perhaps we bleed much more than we should. Perhaps i do. Perhaps its true...i am my own worst enemy. Perhaps its true, You are my worst enemy!

THe otHER sIDE

In life, you go through stuffs you really don't welcome..sometimes its just a part of growing up...You push yourself to the limit. Amazing what one can achieve..its all there; hidden, invisible but its there. Comfortably Numb......yes, when its the only feeling..you're on the safer side...Ask yourself..is it really safe to always attach oneself to the safer side???....could it be that you are just scared of crossing over?..but then again, who's not?..You tell yourself...this is enough, this is okay, this is a state of equilibrium. No to drama!
       Then the ICEBERGS.....do you think you can free yourself from hitting the iceberg?..REALLY??!

I doubt you will..Life is not that beautiful....it is actually bleak and dark and unfair.But who are we to complain?..who are we to judge?...what can be done is the question. the answer would be ...let yourself go...prepare for the journey to the other side of the world...an awakening...the blooming of the other side of you!

WRONG IMPRESSION- NATALIE IMBRUGLIA.....

i miss you, i love you......wasn't trying to pull you in the wrong direction..i'm calling out!

Girl...Go PUt YouR NeW ShoEs ON! hahha!

EvidenTly OVerjoyed!!!

Just got them...literally jumping around...all over the place,,,

YAAAaAAaY! I've been lusting over a pair of these since forever!...The moment i laid eyes on them...i told myself.....i am going to adopt your bloody arse,...hahhahaha! ...Actually, a friend of mine<Esther> was the first to own these babies.. I convinced her the need for me to adopt one of  these ...she was like,,..why not?...they shall call themselves sisters if they have to...;D:D..

A swim in the pool of self pity!

She curled up on the bed, under layers of heavy sheets, a lump...she buried herself in the depth..tears rolling down her cheeks, every teardrop;a remorse, a realization, pain. All she did was love; to her heart's fullest.

She had let herself felt...for the first time, she had allowed the fences to crumble down.... The Other  had become The Significant Other..she's falling; hard. A vulnerability she had never known. A fragile, scared living form she had evolved to be. A sudden surge of emotions hurling up her ever so diminished self. She lay there empty, alone confused. She felt her mind wandering, searching for  the unknown. She swore she saw a heart

letting itself out  the slightly opened window...with the door bolted, it had to find an alternative means...a desperation, she insisted. She realized no sooner than later, that she had been swimming in a pool of self pity. 

She felt a tap on the shoulder, a face..and on opening the other eye, not just a face but faces.A wry smile. A forced laughter, . It was empty, like a seashell, robbed of its very own existence.  ..They knew not of the suffering, the pain she bore....her very own heart that had been eating her up..reducing her to nothingness. She stared blankly at the walls..nodding, and then a few more times. She did not want them to think she was behaving odd and slightly disoriented,not certainly to think that she was weak.  She realized furthermore that she had gone deaf, to a certain extent..., which at the moment  seemed perfectly fine.She needed it. A coping mechanism she told herself.  Finally, the laughter died down..the faces disappearing...she noticed the relief in her. She made herself comfortable in the very bed that had served a mother figure to her, where none existed, for her very own loving mother was a light years away from where she was; and she missed her so very badly. She felt herself weary, weak and lonely yet again...the familiar pangs of emotions. A whirlpool of tears..she kept swimming...exhausted..she laid there half asleep....a rhythm slowly pulling her to a state of unconsciousness. 

A Love SCented!

My sweetheart ; a gift from the other side of the world...:)))) A Dorothy Perkins necklace and Victoria's secret Very own Bombshell....Thank You Honey!

One More TIme...!

GEtting ready for a friend's Party..LAst look at the camera before setting off...yep.. a wrap everybody! hahahaha

What the hell are you staring at?!!

After walking a few miles alongside my jogging buddies..i began to notice that  people were staring at me...at first, i thought it was  rude and impolite of them to stare..i followed their eyes just  to find out that the stare in fact was not directed towards my mere physical existence but rather focused on the writing on my tee...which says..........>>>>>'i've got the coolest boyfriend'... a real attention grabber!!!..hahaha!

SOmThiNg OLd!...On a LAzee SUnday!:)

The person on the other end of the line won't let me click a decent photo...thinks himself to be the most important person in my life...hahahaha!....

COLLage...what else?!o_o

 when You think you have all the time in the world ...:D

A microscopic look at the pictures, roughly pasted...lol...( then again..Its me!..what more do you expect?!).>>> a picture a midst .....mY LIFE..mY LOVE.....my HEART on the wall!..an innocence recaptured!..a contradiction... the superficial s versus the innocent, an uncorrupted image!....an odd paste...just to keep me grounded...a reminder of the more simpler things in life..a smile upon thy face:)
Care to take a guess, perhaps a closer look..the odd picture???..hihi!

A knoCk!

Maybe i'm 'THE FOOL'...a heart so stubborn, it fails to see. Maybe i'm a pest, a lifeless dreamer..a searching soul..wandering , an empty vase! A Knock on the door... the wait.....a frozen time...A rush towards the beaming pathway....a deception..an anticipation....all  but in vain! A stare at the open, ....HOPE......no, the collapse of a  broken smile...Tick Tok!... a glance at the watch..4:03 am....good grief...a skip in time? ..TIME...hoursA
....spent in self loathe and bitterness!.. The eyeless Souls..nearby lying...dressed in the warmth of  selfless devotions..'RAPTURE' And I, Lost, undecided...Tied down....sorrow, a familiar Voice....a ring in the head...fading..fading...FADES!

poSing it....The Liitle woman:)

A highlight of a clearly deformed  super human.....HAhhahaha!

   

                                      

LOVE IS IN THE AIR!

Look what we came across  the other day; on our way back from college.  ADORABLE is the word! A perfect setting...We couldn't help but  stare...The sight was refreshingly breathtaking; an intimate gesture of the not-so- human forms... a pause to this Ugly Deceptive world.. Unfortunately,   this is the nearest i could go to taking the picture. :)))

CLICK IT!

Lunch breaks In college can be exceptionally boring at times...especially when your emotionally hydrated and cant think of anything exciting.except sitting lazily, as if lost a a bone or two; passing comments on every passer-by, which can be very elevating to a certain extent but indeed lame...So why not make a mockery out of myself..i told the other half of me..hence...a photo session; an embarrassment!! However, after continuous clicking in places here and there..i began to enjoy myself..as always; after a few uncomfortable shots, u hit a point where you become just too comfortable...i couldn't care less. I did managed to collect a grin every now and then and entertained, at least while it lasted! 

i swear i saw some laughing at the very sight of my existence!!..perhaps the odd poses! hahaha!

HOW SUBLIME!

12:30 am on the clock and still busy burying myself in books, smeared ink all over my rough yet delicate fingers; while at the same time banging  my head, which in some weird way feels terribly heavy ..to a familiar playlist just to keep me away from falling into deep slumber and  save me from sheer boredom...Great! now i have dogs howling in my background..as if..having seen a ...oh..why not?!..perhaps a Ghost! hahaha!
         A sad Song..yep, just what i need. How sublime!!  The monotony !  And where is that overbearing, self claimed romantic joker when u need him?!!..Care saving a damsel in distress?!.Perhaps not tonight....Fine..It will just be me then..Bullocks! The playlist just isn't helping either...And why is that stuffed animal staring at me?! ..those judging eyes..i'd rather have you sitting in the corner of the shelf and prove your significance.; yes, that's more like it..OH! and just look at the time... the pile of papers and heaps of books lying on my  forever inviting bed.. doesn't look like i'll be hitting the sack anytime soon. HOW SUBLIME!!!!

SAVE THE STRIPED CATS!!!

India' tiger habitats maybe shrinking but its tiger population has increased. The latest census, conducted between December 2009 and December 2010 says the tiger population is 1706; the figure is not an actual head count but an estimate. The finding was announced at The International Tiger Conservation Meet in Delhi. Experts from over a dozen nations who participated in the international conference on tiger conservation stressed the need to address the problems of habitat loss which continue to be the biggest threat to the striped cat.

SAVE TIGERS!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UNoouLa7uxA
 
I love Jewel...The Sincerity and depth of Her songs.. a visually breathtaking  video.....On listening to this song. i Find myself going into this bleak state of bliss:)))))


You're always the mysterious one,
With dark eyes and careless hair.
You Were fashionably sensitive but too cool to care.
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say.
besides some comments on the weather.

You Took your coat off.
Stood in the rain.
You're always crazy like that.

The ForSakEn

Said She Was PerfEcTion,
AdoRnEd wiTh The GreAteSt magnIfiCienCe.
Said she Was A lIghT amidsT the DaRk;
WarmTh In The WildeRnEss.
Said She Were inDeed a HandfuL Of beauTy.

LovEd ShAll bE Who LovAble becOmes.
AnD How IndEed LovAble ShE Was.
A PromIse.


A SaddEnEd HeaRt.
A PromiSe UnDefined.
The LiEs Unfold; A spiRit Grew To Shame.
A RecKlEss Game,
From A hEart So Lame.

A WhISpEr

                                                           A Whisper in the DaRk;
A Silent Tear.

A Body TorN Apart;
A WickEd DisGuise.

A Soul In Despair;
A Silent Prayer.

A Shout Of the vOiceless;
A lOudeSt Cry.

A TormEnted HeARt;
A paTheTic EscaPe.

LOve LOst

A loVe Long Lost;
The Pain In KnowinG.
A hEaRt So Cold;
The hUrt it bRinGs.
A Mind So WiCked;
The StrUggLe WithIn.
A feeliNg so PowerfuL;
The WeAkness In FighTing.
A TouCh so TenDer;
The dIfficulty In FoRgettIng.